El Mal De Ojo!

Shhhh, I don't want to tempt El Mal De Ojo (The Evil Eye) but Sofia slept through the night last night.....from 8:00 pm until 6:45 AM.

The night before she slept from 7:30 pm-3:30 PM and only took 3 oz and then slept until 6:45 AM.

The trick-only offer room temperature formula.

We don't think this is going to last very long. She's been on a formula strike. I don't blame her, really. She's been drinking warm breastmilk from the tap for the past 7 months and now she's having to drink formula from a bottle.

I hate that we have to wean. It's really breaking my heart to the point of tears, but I have to get back on my MS therapy. I know the best thing for her is a healthy mom, but I hate paying $$ for formula when we had such a wonderful and easy breastfeeding relationship.

I miss the closeness. I love when I nurse her and she take the arm that's underneath and rubs my side and then she takes the arm on top and either rubs my face or plays with my necklace. Now the bottle is in the way-though it doesn't stop her from trying to rub my face.

Anyway, we are weaning her so that I can get on Betaseron, and every other day injection. I'll probably be starting it in the next 2 weeks-as soon as a BETA nurse can come out and help me with my first injection.

Poor Sofia is just not loving formula. If I can get 24 oz in her during a day we're lucky and now she's even refusing solids. I know it's just a phase and hopefully soon she'll start taking both again. Luckily for her she's got some extra fat reserves. :)

Well, this post took on a totally different direction than I was planning, but I guess I needed to talk about it. Mothering is hard. Mothering with MS is even harder. It's hard making decisions like this. I know it's the best thing for us all, but since I became a mother I've totally changed the way I think. I do everything for my children. Every decision I make is for their benefit. It feels almost selfish to put myself first. And while logically I know that getting on my MS therapy is the right thing for both me and my family. I feel like I'm short changing Sofia.